I knew instantly......
......that this year would be one of the best, full of both unexpected and anticipated experiences. Finally I feel like I'm on my way. I'm almost done with college, which is both terrifying and indescribably exciting. I can do anything I want to, go anywhere I want to. I've never had so much freedom in my life. Granted it's still a bit away, but I can see it!!!
I'm slowly becoming and transforming into the person I want to be. In comparison to my freshman year, I think I'm a much cooler person. I've learned to not be so "Type A" and I am so very grateful for that. I've learned to just enjoy what comes at me and to like being me. It's been a good time. How, you may ask? Enter two wonderful people I've met at college: Shawna and Emily, both of whom I consider angels in my life.
Shawna taught me to relax. My favorite lines from her are, "Everything's going to be ok, it'll all work out," and "ten years from now will it really matter what you got on that test? NO." THANK GOODNESS for Shawna. I shutter to think of the nervous, awful wreck I'd be today without her cool, calm, collected personality. She has taught me to chill out. Along with that, she's taught me to learn to be spontaneous. For this reason, along with a book full of others, I will always love her. I used to plan out my days hour-by-hour, which isn't always a bad thing, but you see, it doesn't allow for spontaneity. Spontaneity can provide, and has provided, some of the best experiences ever. I went skydiving, randomly a few months ago. Not only was this on my list-of-things-to-do-before-I-die, but it an amazing experience. I wouldn't have done this my freshman year; too scary, too dangerous, not planned into my schedule.
I've only known Emily for about a year now but she is such an amazing person (and roommate!). She's probably one of the sweetest girls I know. She has this ability to light up a room. Maybe it's the blonde hair (ha!), but it's probably her smile and her radiant personality. She is just such a good person. I've learned a lot from living with her and being friends with her. Actually it's funny because I didn't really like her when I first met her; I was jealous. Stupid, silly me. She's taught me to be genuine and kind. Where I tend to be blunt and at times rather harsh, I've learned to be nice and tactful. I like this better. I feel better about myself. Sometimes I think being blunt is necessary, but there's a time and a situation. She laughs a lot too and it's contagious and so fun. Really I just like to be around her and in her presence. I think most people do. She is a contagious person! I'm one of three lucky roommates!!!!
If this is what growing up is like, I'm ok with it. I must say though, there will always be a part of me that will hang on to being a child. By this I mean having fun, being silly, and just being happy. It's a good life....I wonder what 2009 will be like. I'm thinking it'll be even better.....